i don’t know how other use their life, actually i didn’t mean for care on any other use their life until i found many unexpected happen with me. my early life was not so perfect, nothing closed for called that; but the rest of that so far good, my score on the academic records said that all, and because of that i had the scholarship (that i never mean for getting that) since 8 years old. ...

as i wrote in this blog for long; it seems like i always running by holding scissors in my hands. but for now thank to someone that come in to my life, i know how to manage that. now i know that i hold the grip of scissors that can always hurt myself or others all the time so now; i run with scissors with the covers and spare. no problems of running with scissors anymore ^^ ...

bricked wall is high, but for me now when look back, for 10 scaled, i think i got 6. i appreciate my effort gravely for bring me to this point; satisfied? never: i believe that if there is a will, there is away. and still plenty way to improve myself. till that i will not just stare on the wall, but scale up as always.

this is the short version of “Anthony Robbins” ’ book as i can understand. if you have more to put then write it out 1. true power of making decision 2. true commitment 3. make decision often 4. learn from your decision 5. stay on commitment but stay flexible 6. enjoy making decision believe 1. we can change right now 2. we are response for all change 1. desire what you really want and what make you didn’t get it now. 2. change is a must now 3. interrupt the old pattern, nonconstructive pattern 4. create a major alternative pattern for replace old pattern 5. condition new pattern until it consistence. do it till it be the habit. set the schedule for what you feel good with that action. 6. make it effect in positive impact. fit in core believe and value.

this may my crazy ideas that i think for long, long long time ago since i watched tron; the first one. long enough to make me cannot remember how long it is. i think that if i made power generator that make the power of the wheels of car spin to make the light of wheel itself shine, how beautiful the scene will be, the car shine like in tron, with out any power from outside of the wheel itself. ...

i made commitment to myself that i will do 2 things for all things past in my life. first “learn all lesson for my own failure” second “remember that it’s always plenty room to grow” recently, i back to re watched very old movies; the faved ones of all time for me; ground hog day, cast away, and bicentennial man. i just feel some lesson want to share, cause i feel some that should be write to remind myself. ...

Many year passed, I tried hard to do new list of resolution each year for long till one day; It seem for me that resolution us nothingness. What you can do when what your target and yourself so far: Too far than any imagine? Resolution or will only can bring you nowhere. If you really wish to be there by all cost; Plan ahead. Plan as we had what skill we had to accomplish that, and thus how you can get that skill. ...

If I look through her eyes and understand all her thought, I may never wish for understand anything else. me, long time ago.

“Whoever said money can’t buy happiness simply didn’t know where to go shopping.” Bo Derek

“For what is a man, what has he got? If not himself, then he has naught To say the things he truly feels and not the words of one who kneels The record shows I took the blows and did it my way” Frank Sinatra