for reading some code colors=c010r2 0 yell0w vi0let br0wn 1 b1ack b1ue p1nk v1olet ye110w 2 3 r3d gr33n blu3 y3llow orang3 purpl3 viol3t gr3y marg3nta n3al 4 or4nge cy4n m4rgent4 ne4l 5 6 7 8 oran8e mar8enta 9

added some pics here

do i need to be like other? do i need to be traditional? why i cannot think like other? why do i have to believe on media, news, or something like traditional ethics? i feel like there is no reason enough for me to believe in that. most ethical reason is a junk for me. do someone that born something have the very different on other? did they sleep, shit, eat and sex like others? ...

another fusjitsu l1010 that i used

just bought new notebook.. now my life is on chaos. everything change in the way i never imagine. some is good, some is bad. let bestow myself a good grieve. ^^ this is some pics i took on the first unpacked full box first unpacked with some of the accessories with my wireless glasser mouse A4tech G7 750 ...

i don’t know the reasons for fighting any more; i thrown all my dream and pride. the good and bad parts of everything mix up. I lose my dream by chances. nothing is especially, while “too many wish-you-were-here” raise here and there, it sucks to lose front-and-center. but all of then sudden comes out there is no burden to quest out. reasons are no supposing out.

i think many times i cannot figure out what i’m thinking. so bad, i try to be rational, but many times cannot. many times i know that let it go nay be the best solution; but that was only thinking. this time, again: i try to believe my glint more than my rational side. before this, i found that my reason is based on my bias. sigh, i can do rational for others. but for my own self, i hardly do. ...

(000000 )(1 as yin, 0 as yang) Great receptivity attracts exceptional results. A natural responsiveness brings about success through support and perseverance, rather than through bold action. Thus, the wise person demonstrates strength like a powerful but gentle mare. This hexagram, consisting of all yin lines, represents a power of the feminine principle no longer honored in our modern world, but such receptivity is most auspicious. The receptive force is sensual as well as powerful, and it can be missed by too much talk and planning. When spring comes, does the grass “plan” to grow? This is a time to concentrate on realities rather than potentials - with how to respond to a situation rather than how to direct it. The mature mare lets herself be guided by a higher power, and is skilled at graceful acceptance. In a strong spiritual way, her quiet contribution is most effective, and brings success. ...

(111111) (1 as yin, 0 as yang) The air is ripe with imagination, inspiration and energy. The dragon is an ancient symbol of an electrically charged, dynamic, arousing force that bodes well for creative initiative. If your goals are in alignment with the greater good, your actions will meet with success, but this can only happen if you assert yourself in a positive way. This is a good time to exercise leadership, because you can be strong now. But be forewarned: success turns to failure when strength turns to arrogance. Believe in your dreams and persevere, and everything around you will flourish. Call upon creative power and let it work through you. Stay focused on your goals; do not let yourself be distracted, or you may lose the power available to you now. And remember that when taking action, success requires good timing.@1: ...

The Tao begot one. One begot two. Two begot three. And three begot the ten thousand things. The ten thousand things carry yin and embrace yang. They achieve harmony by combining these forces. Lao Tzu: Chapter 42 The one is the beginning of being, which has its source in non-being or Tao. The two is, of course, yin and yang. The three is the three treasures: jing, qi, and shen, which can also be thought of as the three levels of existence ; spiritual, physical, and mental; which we contain within ourselves. The ten thousand things are the material manifestations or, simply, the material world. ...