today in middle of nothing, i asked myself what i’m doing here? it likes i waked up from slumber long dream. the dream that i just can do nothing far far better than this.

Do I really try hard enough to push myself? What kinda person that set the goal and not serious enough to complete them? am i kinda person that stinking that much?

listen to “River” and I understand, if really holy water can wash away my sins, i need the whole river.