Swarm from the Deeper Darkness

I have no nightmare, cause in my dreams, I always do it right.
My nightmare is what I find when I wake up.

And this time no hope, no wish, no expect.

I had realized; there is no messiah, no savior, no faith bringer.

By the shadow that overwhelming, still with consciousness I have.
For my clumsiness, I bring myself deeper on darkness.

And after all when I can take the numb out of my head;
Just to know that my last wish is too far to reach.